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19 May 2011 @ 02:20 pm
Hi, I'm new to the community. This might seem a bit unorthodox but I am a photographer who is currently creating a body of photographs on the topic of miscarriages as a way to educate people on their prevalence and the types of experiences that women have because of them (though I am also interested in hearing from partners too).

If you are interested in reading a bit more about the project, please read the rest of the post after the LJ cut. Thank you. :)

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17 May 2011 @ 03:38 pm
Hi there... posting here because I'm not ready to announce this in my personal LJ and so if there's any overlapping friends, please... shhhhhh!!!

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21 March 2011 @ 10:16 pm
Had my appointment with the specialist today. So far, other than the gastroschesis, everything looks perfect=) Placenta and bloodflow all look good as well. I  have another appointment with my OB on 3/29, specialist again in 2 weeks, and need to make an appointment with the pediactric surgeon and get a "tour" of the NICU asap.

Anyway, check out my lil rockstar <3...

x-posted to a couple different places
Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: happyhappy
10 March 2011 @ 03:10 pm

So, I'm not sure how to link my previous post about getting bloodwork back with elavated numbers for spina bifida and neural tube defects.

Anyway, I wanted to give you all an update. My appointment was supposed to be on the 14th, but I got them to squeeze me in today(I hate being nervous!). From the u/s, the specialist told me that my baby def does NOT have spina bifida...which is awesome=) However, the baby does have something called gastroschisis. Apparently, from what I got from the specialist, before the babies belly button fully closed, the intestines started to bulge out. So my child's will be born with the intestines on the outside. I haven't had the chance to research it myself, but it seems that it can be as little as a couple inches to as much as a few feet. So, I will DEF being having a c-section. Immediately after the baby is born, they will take them into surgery to put the intestines back in.

I was a little upset after hearing this. At the same time, I felt relieved! I was so afraid of it being something so much more serious and life threatening. I am very grateful that this will most likely not shorten the life of my child, and that there shouldn't be any long term issues. It is something that can be fixed=)

Anyway, some good news from my appointment...

boy'girl?Collapse )I go back to the specialist on 3/21 to finish my anatomy scan. Besides the gastroschisis, everything else looks good<3

x-posted to pregnant and august2011
Current Location: work
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
07 March 2011 @ 06:44 pm

My name is Keanna.  I'm 20 and my fiance and I have been together for a little over six years.  This past November we found out I was pregnant.  It was an accident, and needless to say we were both scared shitless.  But after the initial shock wore off we were super excited about it.  I went to my first prenatal appointment and they weren't able to find the heartbeat with the dopler.  They figured that it was just because I was only 10 weeks along, so they told me to come back in 2 weeks to try again... so two weeks come and go and I go in.  Still no heart beat.  I wasn't nervous, I figured that it was just because I'm a little overweight.  The thought of a miscarriage hadn't even crossed my mind.  So the doctor came in and did the ultrasound... the baby had stopped developing at 7 weeks.  To say I was devastated would be an understatement.  I felt like my whole world fell apart.  I had a D&C December 22 (Merry Christmas to me) and finally got my period back the 12th of last month.  We were going to wait a few months to try again, but changed our minds and are now actively trying.

I'm pretty nervous.  I'm wanting to be pregnant again so badly.  There's nothing more than I want than to hold my own little baby in my arms.  I have always wanted children, and getting so close to having one and then having it snatched away... it has about killed me.  It doesn't help that a girl I used to go to school with who I'm friends with on facebook is due 4 days before I should have been, so I get to see all of her milestones knowing I should be going through the same things... My fiance's brother's girlfriend also just had a baby 2 weeks ago, and that hurt pretty bad too.  

 It's driving me crazy not knowing how my body is working anymore.  Normally my period would be due anytime this week but I know miscarriages mess up your cycle... This will only be the first month we've been trying and the waiting is already driving me crazy.  I wish my stupid period would show or one of the million pregnancy tests I've been taking will turn out positive.  And I know that when I do manage to get pregnant I'm still going to be a nervous wreck because I'm going to be paranoid all the time. 

Anyway just thought I'd introduce myself.  I've been lurking around for the past month but never posted anything. 
07 March 2011 @ 01:24 pm
and now I am a little nervous! I had the last part of the triple intergrated screening done on 2/26. Basically, you get bloodwork and an ultra sound done around 12-14 weeks and go back for a second round of bloodwork around 16-18 weeks. They use the results from all 3 of these tests to help determine things like down syndrone and neural tube defects. The first part of my testing came back perfect and normal (bloodwork and us). I just got the results in for the last part and my levels for AFP (proteins that detect ntd like spia bifida) were pretty high. The specialist called me on Friday and told me not to worry because they seemed only slightly elavated. However, I feel most comfortable with my OB, so I called his office this morning and spoke with him. He sounded pretty concerned. He said that we should wait until I go for my next us(which is the 14th) and take it from there. He sounded pretty concerned. He also suggested a possible amnio. I am very scared of getting an amnio. It increases the chance of losing your child. I already lost my first child at 27 weeks. I don't know if I want do anything to this pregnancy that would possibly assist in that happening again! I'm just really upset right now and I don't know what to do. Has anyone ever dealt with this in the past? How did things turn out? Sorry to be so down, but I just need someone to talk to.

Thanks in advance=)

x-posted to August2011 and pregnant
04 February 2011 @ 01:57 pm
So i've officially made it to my 8th month. That's longer than any of my previous pregnancies and i'm terribly excited!! I'm doing better, and baby Taryn is doing excellent. I had an appointment with my new midwife and i've lost 3 lbs since I left the hospital last Friday!
I had the courage to change Drs and i'm now seeing a very lovely midwife who works for UTMB named Kathy Wurzlow. She delivered the first baby of the new year to be born in Galveston county! She's very knowledgeable, and has been a CNM for over 15 years. I knew right off the bat already that her bedside manner was going to be better than my last OB. She's very sharp, smart, caring, and she actually listens to everything you have to say and offers great input. The only thing I noticed about her was that she's in favor of having an epidural. She says she's "in love with epidurals". Most of the CNMs i've encountered were for natural births, but she says she understands why I wish to go without an epi as long as possible. I had my first visit with her yesterday, and it went well! The only thing I wasn't happy about was having to get a tetanus shot :) LOL
Speaking of good news, I called my doula about a week ago with worries that we couldn't afford her, even with her discounted price. So, she gave me the numbers of two other doulas she knew of in the area, and after thinking about it, I picked a number and decided to call. What did I have to lose at this point? The first doula I called is from the Houston Bay Area and her name is Jessica Gonzales. She is such a sweetheart, and although she's been attending births for some time now, just got her certification, and specializes in low income mothers, families, and mother's opting for adoption. She is wonderful and is offering me her services for free. Her only stipulation is that her student midwife be allowed to attend my birth as well. I don't mind, so of course I said sure, and now I have not one, but two doulas attending my birth for free. I feel truly blessed that everything is going so well.
Tomorrow afternoon is my first of two baby showers. I decided to have one in my hometown, and one here in Clear Lake where we live. My Clear Lake shower is tomorrow. I feel so unloved and nervous because of all of the people my best friend invited, the only people who will be there are her, my MIL, me, and my hubby. Everyone else either had other plans or had to work. I feel like this was a bust. I really hope my shower back home turns out better, which it doesn't look like it, because my cousin whos throwing it for me lost the location that she had set to hold the shower at. Invites have not gone out yet, thankfully. I'm hoping she gets on the ball soon though.
I guess that's enough of a ramble now, if you've made it this far, you deserve something to perk your attention, so without further adieu....

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18 January 2011 @ 01:10 pm

Reserachers at the University of British Columbia (Canada) are currently conducting a study on FEAR OF CHILDBIRTH.

We are looking for a sample of pregnant women from across North America to complete a short online questionnaire about their fears and concerns about pregnancy & childbirth.

For more information and to take the 15-min survey click here:

For information on research at the Mother-Infant Wellness Lab:

Thanks for your participation!

07 January 2011 @ 04:39 pm
There were a great number of times where things came up in this pregnancy that I thought I'd never be able to make a birth story post. But I can. I also want to thank everyone here and over at pregnant community for the help in getting through this.

A lot here. I can't count the miscarriage scares I had from bleeding throughout the pregnancy. Or any other thing that popped up from the preterm labor that was stopped before 36 weeks... to me actually going past my due date and being scheduled for an induction I didn't make it to.

So here goes...

Olivia Renae
January 3, 2011
8lbs and 21 1/4 inches

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So Thank you!!
13 December 2010 @ 04:41 pm
Sadly, that little grey tissue that I passed on Saturday night was the baby afterall. Looking back, it did resemble a sac, but when I played around with it, there was nothing but greyish streaks and little black dots inside of it. Nothing at all that resembled a baby.

I had an ultrasound this morning that confirmed my fears.

I am thankful that this was such a peaceful miscarriage. The cramping is already gone. Now it is just bleeding.

It was nice getting to know all of you and I pray that you will all continue to have healthy pregnancies. Perhaps I'll see you back here in another few months. I think we will probably start trying again in February if cycles resume as normal.

Thank you for all of your kind words.